i don’t sleep

i pace

i ponder 

i plot

i plan 

i worry

i wonder

i wax

i wane

i relive

i regret

i rethink 

i rehash

i contemplate  

i evaluate

i deliberate

i speculate

i ruminate

i analyze

i strategize

i dramatize

i fantasize

i brood

i delude

i stress

i obsess 

i digress

i’m a mess 

and i don’t sleep. 

Today

I gave a rupee to an old bum who looked the way I feel. 

Sometimes

I close my eyes and all the world drops dead
sometimes, I lift my eyes and the world is born again

Sometimes I dream that you bewitched me into bed
and sung me moonstruck and kissed me quite insane

Sometimes I think I made you up inside my head.
and
Sometimes I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.